45+ Widowhood & Dating

I became a widow at 43 & has not been dating anyone since. I am 48. I do not anticipate ever dating anyone during this life, but I know other people have different opinions & desires.

 

Many people are capable of completely moving on & begging fresh, however, middle age

& young children are usually a halting factor for many. After attempting one date, on Elite Singles ® and getting told the night before the date that "he clicked with somebody else, better & want to cancel" I decided to never visit any dating sites again. Changed my number & moved on into forever peaceful serenity of being happy alone.

 

Who needs these jerks anyway at 48, when you can be self-content & more successful alone. They still going to choose 17 to 35 to sleep with. I would admit I was not looking

for something emotional when I planned the date. I am not 10, I am 48, I was looking for physical & intellectual partner, way more than emotional, especially after widowhood. I love good sex  & no tragedies or dramas, but they all crave drama after 40, like to talk too much & have potency problems ... So, there is really no market for 48  year old females on the sex date trend, especially, formal Russian immigrant, who was never part of any escort service, (as they all assume about us), so, no options for normal romantic, but sexy date, except Ashley Madison ®, which is almost prostitution & definitely not my style. I would rather practice Tantra.
 

I, personally, prefer to live with my sons and avoid heartache. Definitely would never consider getting married, or even dating again. Never. Not after 48. One funeral was enough. I love my final freedom. I am the happiest person when I am alone, with my pets.

In my own home. And how would you even imagine to bring a strange elderly boyfriend into the home you share with your adult kids? It's a crazy idea.